Who knows . . .

This is rediculous. Just when you think it's over something else slips up that sets you back again. I'm sick of always being sick. Everyone at school tells me that I am always complaining and when I say I dont feel well the typical response is "K, you NEVER feel well." So okay maybe I dont always feel so hot but then again no one at school as been put through what I've gone through. Not to toot my own horn but I don't think any of them would have been able to deal with it the way I have and walk out in the end with a smile. No matter how I'm feeling I typically try to keep a positive attitude when I'm around others. It is when I'm alone that it really gets to me; I feel like I'm some sort of freak - that I will never be normal.

Sunday morning I woke up not feeling too well. I brushed it off, per usual. When I woke up Monday morning feeling worse, I knew something was up. I had a migraine, stomach pains, a stuffy nose, and the worst sore throat you could ever imagine. Originally I thought I had the flu, maybe pouchitis which only those who have had my surgery can get. I called my surgeon and have an appointment with him tomorrow morning. When Tylenol wasn't helping my headache and sore throat I called Mom. She said to call my Pediatrician as well. I did and they made an appointment for me for last night at 6:20. After the nurse saw me she did bloodwork and discovered I was positive for mononucleosis. GREAT! What else could I get at this point? She told me the worst of it is typically the first 5 to 7 days. Can I just tell you that the next 7 days are my last days of classes and then I have finals. This couldn't have happened at a better time, let me tell you.

On the other hand, I have by far the BEST boyfriend in the world. My Dad even likes him, when my Dad likes someone, you know they are a good person. The other day he showed up at my house without me to do some yard work for my parents. My mom asked him if I was with him and he said no she doesn't even know I am here. He then proceeded to text me and tell me that he was at a customer's house who had a "beautiful daughter" and maybe if the customer liked him the daughter would too. Typical me thought he was at his regular customers house and flipped out. When I found out he was talking about me I felt extremely guilty. Later that day, my Dad texted me saying he did a wonderful job on the yard and that "Puppy would really like him - a real hard worker." Puppy is my late grandfather who both my father and I miss terribly. It meant a lot to me when he said that. Today he drove from school to come see me. He changed the head light in my car and went with me to get an inspection sticker. As of right now, hes definitely a keeper and I couldn't ask for anyone better. I like you alot honey =)

Well I'm off to go rest. If my mom comes up here and finds me on my computer shes gunna get angry. Have a good night everyone!

Taking things for granted

So after everything I have been through especially in the last year or so you would think
I would realize that we all take things in life for granted; as a matter of fact I feel as though we take life for granted.

The other afternoon I did my typical e-mail check and Facebook check. I had a message on Facebook from my aunt saying that a woman whom I use to work with had lost her 4 year old granddaughter to a brain tumor this past weekend. Four years old . . . can you imagine that? It made me think a lot of stuff in my life. Stuff I don't appreciate. Granted, I haven't had my health all my life but I have it now; for the most part. I have friends and family who care about me. I have two loving parents who i dissrespect more than imaginable. They know I love them and I would do absolutely anything for them. The problem is that 9 times out of 1o I have to start an argument first. I have two sisters who I would give my life for. I have almost always gotten along with the baby. I think that because I spent a year at home with her we grew pretty damn close. Unfortunately, I'm not as close with my other sister. We use to be best friends, I would tell her anything and everything. Senior year of high school, I got a boyfriend who she didn't get along with - it tore us apart. Now I have a boyfriend who she likes a lot more and I hope and pray that my relationship with her can grow strong again. As a matter of fact, after she met the new boyfriend she sent me a text saying she liked him 182957282925 times better than the last one. For some reason, that meant everything to me. I saved the text message - locked it in my phone so that it can never be deleted. Then there is my family: grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins. Again I would give my life for them. Many people who know me well know that my family is my world. I love all of them and love spending time with them. That isn't common with kids my age - I text my aunts for fun! Who do you know that can say that?! Then I have my friends - again, these people are my world and as always I would give my life for them. My problem with friends is that I have my true friends but then I have people who use me. I have a hard time saying no when people ask me to do things for them and in the end, I end up getting hurt. Regardless, at the end of the day I know who my true friends are.

I know I just rambled for a while but those are the things in life that we take for granted. Fighting with people is pointless - how would you feel if the last memory you ever had with someone you cared about was a fight. We need to start living life to the fullest because we never know when we are going to be robbed of it.

I hope you all realize what you have around you and who loves you. Don't let people take advantage of you and if you love someone tell them. You never know when it is going to be your last chance . . .

RIP Erin =)